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Wow, I was reading over that entry where I was bang in the middle of studying for the exams, or one exam in particular. I GOT IN!! I'm over the moon.I still have a loooonng way to go.But I will make it.I hope that doesn't sound cocky, but its not its not as if I have a choice. I simply have to get into third year psychology. And if it kills me, i will. If I have to study every single second of second year, I dont care, I will do it, I will FUCKING GET IN to third year.So thats that.

Anyway.........I LOVE psychology.I absolutely love it, there is nothing I would rather read about or learn.It is absolutely the most facinating wonderful thing that I have ever been lucky enough to encounter.I literally devour psychology books, I read everything about it that I can get my hands on.Humans are facinating,wonderful creatures, to study how we think, make decisions,act, why we do certain things...........its amazing!

There are so many amazing soundtracks. There are so many amazing books. Thus, I have a tendency to create soundtracks for books. Usually I do this unintentionally, where there there is this wonderful moment where I am listening to music & reading a book & suddenly, it seems that the music suits the book. For a lot of books, the music becomes embedded into the book to the point where they are inseperable, whenever I read that part of the book, the music starts playing in my head. Much of the music that I have for books, is music that I have now dislike, except for reading the book. Ive been doing this since I was around 10, initially for Prisoner of Azkaban. Here are some of them.

Harry Potter & the Prisoner of Azkaban.
Britney Spears- Oops I did it again (instrumental version). Beginning with the part where Harry et al. are in the Shrieking Shack with Sirius to the point where they leave the shack to hand in Pettigrew.
Britney Spears- Baby one more time.   Quidditch final.

Harry Potter & the Goblet of Fire. 
B*witched- Jesse Hold on. When the Weasleys come to collect Harry.
Britney Spears- I want you for the rest of my life. At the Quidditch World Cup.
Britney Spears- Drive me crazy. When Harry is fighting the Hungarian Hornback dragon.
Backstreet Boys- Larger than Life. The second that Harry grabs the gold cup.
Geri Halliwell- Ma sweeta ? Second task.
A1- Everytime/U2- Hold me, thrill me. When Harry is in the graveyard with Voldemort.
A1-Everytime. When Harry has just arrived back to Hogwarts after escaping Voldemort till Crouch tells his story.
Westlife- If i let you go. Where Dumbledore starts roaring at Fudge till the end of that chapter.

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.
South- Paint the Silence. Where Harry kisses Ginny.
Braveheart soundtrack- track 17, when they are going to throw the sword. Dumbledore's funeral. (This is, I think, perfect music for that part). 

Wuthering Heights.
Britney Spears-Everytime. Chap 16. (I swear, some of those lyrics are perfect for the Catherine-Heathcliff relationship).

Its that time of the year. The dreaded, stress-inducing, hair-tearing, sleep inhibiting exams are upon us again. I'm just in first year, but its the same as last year. And yet..........theres something beautiful about it too. I'm working to achieve a dream that I've harboured since I was around 11. That is kind of beautiful. And now, as the exam approaches, my longing to gain a place in second year is drastically increasing. I mean, come on, yes, I am wrecked, but.........its life!!!!!!! 
                                                    ..............honestly dont know what I'm gonna do if I dont get a place in second year though. This is it for me. The final countdown, I HAVE to get into second year.

The study room is completely thronged. Its an assault on the senses. A sea of bent heads, the quiet turning of pages & exasperated sighs, occasionally the heavy breathing of someone whos fallen asleep. Fair play to them all, its actually pretty nice outside.  Listening to Monty Python- Always look on the bright side of life. Maybe appropriate now!

I dunno....just having one of these days. My best friend and I still aren't right after what happened, or maybe for her what didn't happen when I visited her up at college that time. Immediately after the visit I was really creeped out and...wanted to stay away from her for a while. There was little contact between us for a while afterwards. I'm cool about it now, though maybe she isn't. Major MAJOR mistake visiting her that time. I dunno, I was talking to her on the phone on Saturday and it was really awkward. I dont think that shes adjusting well up there...and I hate myself coz she doesn't feel comfortable enough to tell me. What makes it worse is that we're going through a somewhat similiar experience at uni so maybe we'd be able to help each other. I hope....I dunno, I hope that she's happy. That she always will be, she deserves to be, shes an incredible person. I dunno though...but hey, not all friendships are perfect. Maybe its really rare to find someone you can completely trust and confide in.....
    

In university one learns a new language. Words like 'term' and 'homework' are effortly discarded for 'semester' and 'assignments'. 'Campus' becomes a frequently heard word in ones vocabulary. Suddenly, you are surrounded by 15000 people, instead of a mere 450. As you gaze at the sea of students packed into the lecture hall, you realize that can name maybe 3 people there. Its fantastic!
             Going to uni is without doubt one of the best things that have ever happened to me. The very first day, I made a vow to myself as I ambled through a leafy path on campus. I swore that I am going to enjoy college, even when its tough and I have a million assignments to do, and endless exams, I will never forget, not for a second how lucky I am to be here. I haven't. Its been..6 months now (wow, where did the time pass?) and I absolutely love it!